My Journey Back To You

Dear Leo,

From the first moment I laid eyes on you, my heart became forged to yours. The nurses placed your little head on my chest, and you suckled on my breast. They had yet to detach the umbilical cord, so for the first few seconds, we were two hearts beating as one. The moment I saw you wrapped in that soft white blanket, tears so pure and euphoric slid down my face. I just kept saying, “My baby, my baby”. I couldn’t stop laughing and crying. I think that’s as close as I’ll ever get to heaven on earth, with my beautiful baby boy held in my arms.
                  Now you are 1 year and a month old. I’ve been separated from my beautiful baby boy whose heart still beats with mine. I miss everything about you. You’re cheeky warm toothless smile. The way you wrap your little chunky hands around my thumb. Picking you up and swirling you around in my arms, as our faces beam with happiness. I miss your soft breaths grazing my chest, as you sleep so peacefully.
                  In the further journal entries, I will explain how I got here and how hard I am working to bring our hearts together again. For now, I just wanted to reminisce about my happiest memories with the love of my life.
                  Mommy loves you.